I'M A LOSER SO WHY DON'T YOU KILL ME

I’m 42 years of age. By societies expectations and standards I should have children, a wife, a mortgage, the latest car and the latest iPhone. I should have a 9-5 job when I loose my soul in a pointless, life sucking, tedious job so that I can pay off the above things things that I don’t want or need. People get themselves into so much debt on nonsense just to impress their neighbors and acquaintances. It’s bloody frightening. I don’t own a credit card and I live within my means. I have a mobile prepaid plan, I have health insurance and I have my meds to purchase each month. Petrol is something else there is no way around but a full tank makes me feel like a rich man and this lasts for weeks.

I’ll just get it out there… I live with my parents. It was meant to be a short term move while I found another place of my own, but I got comfortable I guess. It’s a big house and I have my own living quaterrs and it is still a roof over my head. I pay little rent and I dont pay for the utilities. I’m using the opportunity to save money and get my mental health togethre. I haven’t spoke about this in any ofmy videos until now. I have depression, anxiety and schizophrenia. This restricts me from doing a lot of what normal people do. Leaving the house can be an ordeal, anyway, I digress. I wish I had the ability to not care what others think but at times this makes me feel like a loser. I have my reasons to stick around. Once I make a little bit of money that I can put into savings, this would bring me one step closer of my goal of living in my own place.

Everything is so dear. The cost of living is out of control and rent is almost unpayable. Even if a cheap place pops up, there is a line of people that reaches around the block. What chance do I have when a simple apartment costs over two thousand dollars a month! My only option is to huse share which is something I do NOT want to go through again. I have been through this so many times. I have probably lived with 20 - 30 people. I have hated everyone of these situations.

How do people afford medications, groceries, food, pets, children, all of the expenses that come with owning and driving a car, accommodation, insurance etc. People are using their credit cards to pay for food and bills and getting themselves into more debt. Credit cards have never been more popular and there is billions of dollars of debt simply so one can feed their baby and by their medication. The world is back-to-front.

I’m getting old. My parents are defiantly getting old so something needs to change. Maybe I’ll buy a tent and set up home in Frankston and live there. I would love to know how people are doing it? How can they afford these ridiculously prices??!!