Here’s another blog I shouldn’t create. I have written and posted this a few times now but I always delete it as it is rather personal (I say while sharing it to the world) and without knowing me as a reasonably normal person you may gather that I’m a crazy man. Before I get into it, let me just say that I am NORMAL when it comes to societies expectations and there isn’t a mean or dangerous bone in my body. I wouldn’t even hurt an insect. I’m just unlucky that my illness carries such a stigma. A stigma that I don’t even like associating myself with. It would be so much easier to have a broken bone as this is something most would understand. For the people who know me, I’m guessing you know what this diagnoses is, but for someone who knows little to nothing about me, it may frighten you off. Celebrity personalities who have suffered drug and alcohol problems have come out with their stories and made international bestsellers out of their books and they have a lot more readers than I and crazier stories. This doesn’t even cover the millions of people talking about their experiences online and on YouTube.

Guys, I just went through the list of topics I wanted to write about and none of these sit well with me to talk about. I’m pretty transparent on this blog but I have to draw the line somewhere. I can’t post these blogs as there is no way of doing it without making me feel uneasy. Let’s just say I have had over 20 admissions to hospital, been on dozens of different meds, too many rides in the back of police cars and ambulances I care to recall and a couple of stints in rehab. I’m not going to elaborate on these occasions as I was going through some dark times. I have had plenty on doctors, psychiatrists and the psych wards know me well. They became my second home. My insurance company has forked out so much money on my hospital stays they would have been able to buy a house… No kidding! There are dozens of stories to tell but I’ll keep these to myself. I started this blog off with good intensions but I just can’t do it. Sorry!