This blog entry doesn’t have one particular topic I deliberately jump all over the place. Yuck, I consumed 3 large energy drinks last night and ate half a block of chocolate. I eat reasonably well most of the time, home cooked meals and fruit and veg. My body wasn’t equipped to deal with this punishment. I feel like I have a slight hangover, feeling sick and lethargic. Like someone waking up after a big night on the booze that sward never to drink again, that’s how I feel about V energy drinks. Lesson learnt. I keep telling myself to get on the scales, but I don’t want to see the damage. Not long back I went 7 months sober. During this time I started an exercise routine and went for two 45 minute walks a day for a month. Combine this with a healthy diet, surely I would have lost at least a few kilos. I built up the courage and stepped onto the scales praying for good results. I put on weight! I couldn’t believe it. It was at about this stage I gave up trying. I remained sober for a bit but I fell from the pink cloud and never made it back. I know the reason why; It’s because im on medication. Seroquel is renowned for putting on weight, so are the other 3 medications I take. It doesn’t matter what I do, I’ll always be overweight and at the end of the day that’s fine by me. I’m not morbidly obese I just have a beer gut that I want to rid myself of. My uncles who all used to drink until recently all have beer guts but for me I think it was a combination of beer and meds. My brother is skin and bones. I wish I could shift some of my weight onto him. I have no plans today. I think I’m going to hibernate in my room writing blogs and listening to Joe Rogan. My respect for Rogan has dwindled since he had gone far right and is buddies with Trump. A man that I despise. He is still one of the best interviewers there is and he has interesting guests. The first thing I do in the morning is make a strong coffee and sus out the latest sobriety podcasts. This has become a ritual. I also follow a lot of American politics. I’m embarrassed to say I know more about America than I do my own country. I must be YouTubes biggest listener. I have it playing all night and I watch it all day long. There is never a break. This must be why I dream of Rogan, because he has worked his way into my psyche from being played all night long. My shakes have got better. I along with my family were really concerned. It was as if I had Parkinson’s. They weren’t just shaking, they were convulsing. They are back to normal now so I can type and I can use the EFTPOS machine at the supermarket without asking a clerk to type in my pin number. That’s one less worry, now onto the next ones. I have learnt to not stress about most medical issues as ninety percent of them resolve themselves over time. I will only go to the doctor if I am in pain or my issue get’s out of control. The amount of worries I have had over the years and nothing ever came of them. Did you know there is such a thing as too much water? When the doctor asked me the other day how much water do I consume I said about eight liters. She was shocked and told me to consume no more than three liters. Here I am thinking I’m doing the right thing for my liver and kidneys and I was actually doing harm. There’s always something. I have cut back to maybe four. I’m a big boy… some water isn’t going to harm me. She also put me on some medication for my gout and increased my antacids medication. This doctor was wonderful. I want her as my GP. I still have some tests to go. I have to get a heart monitor that counts my heartrate over 24 hours and an ECG connected to me. Don’t ask me how I’m going to sleep with all of this on me. I think it’s unnecessary but the doctor insist. I see a psychiatrist in two months! Good thing it’s not urgent. For six hundred dollars he better be good! My shrink who is on extended leave bulk billed me for fourteen years. I hope after this initial payment the new fella bulk bills me too but I’m not counting on it. That’s it for now. Have a good day and thanks for reading. Please remember to hit the like button.